I'm not new to all this. I have been blogging for about a year and a half. I fell in love at first sight with the idea of putting my thoughts to the internet, to answering random questions posed by people I could not see, to meeting instant friends brought together by our love of doing this, here.
I started pouring out into my first blog. I so very much wanted people to read it that I shouted it at the top of my lungs. I posted links on Facebook. I told my friends. I told my parents. I even took them to the site. And then I wrote my first honest piece, only to be told from my Mom that she feels sad when I write about being upset. I felt stuck in how far my content could go.
Then I created a new blog. I didn't scream it as loudly. I didn't actually tell my parents about it, but I linked to it from my old blog. I flooded my former writing space with links to my new writing space in hopes that some of my 300+ followers would follow. I wrote more honestly thinking less people who personally knew me were reading it. One post I opened up about some childhood feelings only to receive an anonymous comment that sounded eerily family to my mom. I felt stuck again.
So here I am. Anonymous. And yes, I totally get the irony of having to go anonymous to truly be myself. Here I will be true. I will never shy away from a subject. I will never leave a question unanswered. I am a very honest person, and finally I can be that here.
And anyways I still have that second blog that I can fill with sweet nothings, if nothing but for my mom's benefit.
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